M is for Misfit

Today's topic: "Can you accept yourself as you are?"

I guess I could but I really don't want to. I mean, I feel that I'm a fairly lovable human being. At my best, I'm confident, witty, optimistic, charming, easy-going, and open. At my worst, I'm unsure of myself, clumsy (ok well I'm pretty clumsy most of the time), bitter, hopeless, closed off, and reclusive.

At the moment, I'm somewhere between those two ends of the spectrum. So right now, no I do not want to accept myself as I am. I know acceptance is an important part of moving forward but there are somethings (especially right now) about myself that I don't want to accept but at the same time, I kinda feel like a dog that's chasing its tail: nobody really knows why that dog is doing it and the dog probably doesn't know why either but for some reason, it can't stop spinning around and around in circles, chasing something it can't catch.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that while I'm not someone I don't find appealing or worthwhile, I'm not ready to settle. I'm starting to think that I have what I like to call "Disney Princess Syndrome" - it seems like my mind is always floating off somewhere while I'm stuck on the ground wanting more outta life. I guess that's not a bad thing, but it sure is frustrating when you're feeling restless but don't know how to cope with it :/

On that note, I'm going to watch the Little Mermaid! :D

Misfit