M is for Misfit
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Day 4 - Am I Really That Different?
Today's Topic: "Do you think you are really different from other people?"
Yes....and No.
It's not so much that I tell myself "oh I'm so different from everyone around me, no one understands me!" as much as it's a feeling of being different. I feel loneliness, I want happiness, and I laugh and cry just like everyone else and yet ever since I was little, I've felt different from other people and the adults around me even told me I was different.
I was definitely different from other children when I was little. For example, my very first imaginary friend was a nine-legged grim reaper kitty...and no I don't know why the kitty had an odd number of legs. Maybe he lost one lol. Another example, I was the kid that just kinda went off in the corner and doodled or something. I can't remember what grade it was in, but I remember one year there was a boy named Caleb that came to our class in elementary school and he was very, very quiet and wouldn't speak to anyone in class, not even the teacher. One day, I was playing with some legos or something by myself once again in the corner and Caleb comes over and askes if he can play with me. Those were the first words anyone in that class ever heard him say....freaks unite!! lol
In junior high and highschool, I was different just because I wasn't sure how to embrace my nerdiness, I had a short temper, and because I was an easy target lol.
In college, I was different because I reached the point where I stopped trying. I didn't try to be funny, I didn't try to be cool, I didn't try to fit in, I just went with my instincts and let the chips fall where they may. Did I do everything with grace and perfection? Heeeeeck no! But that's ok, it just adds to my down-to-earth charm lol.
So when I break it all down like that, my answer is this: while I'm not necessarily different from everyone else, I do feel that for better for worse I am one of a kind and no matter how much in common I might have with another person, there is only one me. And I'm totally stoaked about that fact :3
Misfit
Yes....and No.
It's not so much that I tell myself "oh I'm so different from everyone around me, no one understands me!" as much as it's a feeling of being different. I feel loneliness, I want happiness, and I laugh and cry just like everyone else and yet ever since I was little, I've felt different from other people and the adults around me even told me I was different.
I was definitely different from other children when I was little. For example, my very first imaginary friend was a nine-legged grim reaper kitty...and no I don't know why the kitty had an odd number of legs. Maybe he lost one lol. Another example, I was the kid that just kinda went off in the corner and doodled or something. I can't remember what grade it was in, but I remember one year there was a boy named Caleb that came to our class in elementary school and he was very, very quiet and wouldn't speak to anyone in class, not even the teacher. One day, I was playing with some legos or something by myself once again in the corner and Caleb comes over and askes if he can play with me. Those were the first words anyone in that class ever heard him say....freaks unite!! lol
In junior high and highschool, I was different just because I wasn't sure how to embrace my nerdiness, I had a short temper, and because I was an easy target lol.
In college, I was different because I reached the point where I stopped trying. I didn't try to be funny, I didn't try to be cool, I didn't try to fit in, I just went with my instincts and let the chips fall where they may. Did I do everything with grace and perfection? Heeeeeck no! But that's ok, it just adds to my down-to-earth charm lol.
So when I break it all down like that, my answer is this: while I'm not necessarily different from everyone else, I do feel that for better for worse I am one of a kind and no matter how much in common I might have with another person, there is only one me. And I'm totally stoaked about that fact :3
Misfit
posted by Misfit at 1:56 AM
1 Comments:
I'm all caught up reading your blog. I've enjoyed it; and especially this entry. I always felt 'different', even when I was your age. You've discovered who you are at an early age. It's a great thing to be at peace with yourself. All you need now is to find your place of service in this world. Seek Him first and it will come.
~Mom~
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